This made me smile so big :)
I’m not really sure why…but I’ve been looking at different ministries all day long. I talked with Nancy for like seven hours today mostly about ministry and what we were looking to do, and every single time that I see her she convicts me about my future ministry. No joke, every single time. I don’t get it. But she always tells me that she sees me with world help, so I was looking around at Operation Baby Rescue (as always because I’m so obsessed with their ministry) and for some reason I thought ‘lets look up Guatemala on Joshua Project and see what other ministries there are besides OBR’…and the very first link that I clicked on literally brought me to tears. These pictures are the most precious pictures that I have ever seen in my whole life….You know sometimes I do away with my dream to work with orphans because most of the time it isn’t practical…but then I look at pictures like these as tears are streaming down my face and I wonder how I could ever give that up. As I look at each of these pictures, crying at all four, I wonder how I could ever choose a country to stay in for the rest of my life. I realize that there are seasons for everything…but this absolutely tore me apart…because the thought of leaving behind these precious children of God while only working with one of them seems so impossible to me. I don’t know how I could ever do it…but some day I hope to figure that out, I hope to show them a love that I too was shown when I didn’t have parents, and I hope to dedicate my life to moments like these that leave me speechless and in tears. That’s all I really want for my life.
I’m a hypocrite and I’m a sinner. I’m a broken mess, and I’m unworthy. I am nothing. But the beauty of it, is that God takes me as I am. He takes every broken piece, every hideous flaw, and turns me into something beautiful that He can use for His glory. He makes me new and gives me purpose. Create in me a clean heart, oh God, and renew a right spirit within me.
A.W. Tozer (via godmoves)
I’m going to be brutally honest right now and say that earlier i had such a meltdown. and if i can be honest again…it was my second one of the week. as i’m sitting in my bed sobbing and crying out for God to just help me…I can feel the presence of Jesus. He’s sitting right next to me on my bed to my right…but it wasn’t just Jesus. it was Jesus after He was crucified. i could see the scars all over His body…i could see the blood. the sores. the deep deep wounds…and it was Him telling me that He too went through pain and suffering, and that I could get through my pain and suffering with Him. and as I continued to feel His presence He slightly just touched my back. He didn’t move, He didn’t say a word. He just touched my back. and i’m not sure if I’ve ever felt so loved in my whole life.
so now I start my process of a mended life. I’ll document it all when I’m done spending some time with my Creator(:
Beware of Christians (via liftusuptofall)
Bondage is some serious stuff. It is extremely serious. Dying in bondage is serious! Satan wants as many souls as he can get don’t let him get yours.
Whatever the devil got you into that you tolerate becomes your bondage from the devil.
How many people go to church and can’t or don’t lift up…
Storm: The storm represents some obstacle in your life. If the storm is passing, the issue is current with a resolution in the near future. If the storm is staying put, it has been an ongoing obstacle in your life with no resolution in sight. The size of the storm represents how big of an obstacle this is to you, as does the distance. The further away the storm the less importance you place on it. If the storm is violent it means this obstacle is causing quite some grief.
this is so incredibly relevant in my life, omg.